#SAResort R1 - Lauren Wills
I'm back!
I can't quite believe I'm here at the resort. It's beautiful! I heard that not everyone got the job they wanted to I was very fortunate to get the job I wanted : gardener. I got sent my dress code : urban fashion, green, neat.
Having lived in the city, I saw a lot of urban fashion but it was never something I wore. I struggled a bit to find an outfit that was urban, fitted my style, was green, was neat and that I wouldn't melt in! I'm happy with what I ended up with nevertheless.
I haven't really spoke to any other people yet, I guess I'm keeping myself to myself for now...
I spent all day today outside, where most of the guests are, mainly tending to the palm trees. There are also so many colourful plants, nothing like I've seen before... Whilst doing my 3rd round of the day with watering cans, I saw a group of children, probably between the ages of 3 and 7 playing in the flower bed. I huffed and set down my watering can before turning and beginning to walk towards them. Suddenly, I stopped. One of them giggled. I've thought about Lewis a few times so far but I try my best to push it to the back of my mind. I don't want to get emotional in front of everyone and have to explain the story to everyone. Something about the child's laughter stopped me in my tracks.
I couldn't hold back the thought. What if he was still alive? Would we have kids? Who would they look like more? Me or Lewis? I had never had an overwhelming want to have children, but I know Lewis did. It felt like it was part of being a married couple...
As a tear begins to fall, I look up to see Elena Lightwood, the owner of the resort, look at me. Embarrassed, I look down and wipe my eyes violently before gently walking over to the children.
"Excuse me... Sorry but can you not play in the flower beds?"
Most of them disperse with agitated mumbles but two remain, a toddler and an older girl who looks like his sister. The boy starts to cry and the girl gives me a deathly stare. I see Elena Lightwood is still there, so I turn away before I can cry too...
I take a 10 minute break just to compose myself. This time when I get back, there is a group of teenagers chatting and throwing bits of plants at each other. Confident after my break, I walk over to them and give them all the stare as they look at me.
"You got a problem?" one of them says
"Could you not do that please." I reply evenly.
"Why not?" a different one says
"Could you just not"
The first one that spoke tears of a large leaf, scrunches it up into a ball and throws it at me. It bounces off my cardigan. I don't even flinch...
By this point, a lot of people who were sunbathing have propped themselves up on their elbows to watch.
"Oh no! Did we break your precious plants?"
The two that had been speaking stand up and look my in eye. They are followed by the rest of the group. They approach me. In a moment of panic, I push the two 'leaders' into the pool. I know the moment I've done it it's a bad decision. As they shout and the others rush to drag them out, I see several people coming towards me, one of which was Elena Lightwood, again... Quickly, I turn and walk away. Distraught...
